Hazel Grace doesn't want Augustus to get hurt. She tries to explain this to him in many ways. "I'm a grenade, Augustus." She uses a metaphor to represent the fact that when she inevitably dies, she will oblitherate everything around her, including him if he gets too close.
Hazel directly resists and pulls away from Augustus. In many scenes when Hazel Grace and Augustus are together, Augustus tries to kiss Hazel or show affection/PDA, and she pushes him away for a reason. She doesn't want to bridge the gap that she's made between them by showing or letting him show he loves her. She always turns her head from him, physically and emotionally. I think that many cancer victims tend to shut out the world like Hazel, especially if they have a set death date. They can't find purpose in doing or loving anything because they find it pointless. Many cancer victims such as Hazel, Augustus and other characters in the book suffer from this sort of depression as well.
She hesitates and regrets decisions she made to be with him. When Hazel Grace first goes back with Augustus to his hotel room, they stop outside the elevator at his floor. "Is he regretting this? I shouldn't have suggested this. Why did I suggest this?" Even when they're together (finally) she still shows her nervous, sensitive side. She worries that when she did pursue him, she hurt him, which is her main fear. Without her cancer and her realization that life is temporary,
In conclusion, Hazel Grace worries that loving Augustus or letting him love her will hurt them both. Hazel is like many people today, nervous or scared to give into a relationship or person.
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